Diary Update:

Today marks the beginning of a new chapter in my life; one filled with determination, courage, and a sense of adventure. After years of letting fear hold me back, I’ve decided to reclaim my passion for cycling on a journey towards better health and well-being.

It’s been a long road to get to this point. I used to love cycling, especially during my days commuting to work in the engineering field, where I was completing my apprenticeship. The freedom of the open road, the wind in my hair, and the rhythmic hum of the wheels beneath me; it was pure bliss. But all of that changed in an instant, one fateful day when I was involved in a collision with a car. (I’m Okay!)  The experience left me shaken and terrified, and I vowed never to ride again.

For years, I let that fear control me, avoiding bicycles and any form of physical activity, causing significate weight gain. But deep down, I knew that I couldn’t let one incident define me or rob me of something I once loved so dearly. So, with the encouragement of my doctor and a renewed sense of determination, I made the decision to get back on the saddle.

Fitness has always been important to me, not just for physical health, but for mental well-being too. I believe that by getting back into shape, I’ll feel happier with my own image and find it easier to navigate the world of clothing, especially as a transgender individual. Cycling offers me a chance to feel strong and empowered, to move through the world with confidence

Today, my new bicycle arrived, and I couldn’t be more excited. As I unpacked the box and laid out all the parts, memories of my engineering days came flooding back. I relished the opportunity to put the bike together, tightening screws, adjusting spokes, and fitting accessories like lights, a cycling computer, and a water bottle cage. It felt good to be working with my hands again, to be in control of something tangible and real.

Here are some images of what I brought:

 

But as much as I enjoyed the process of assembling the bike, I know that the real journey begins when I take that first pedal stroke. It’s been seven long years since I last rode a bike, and I know that I’ll need to take it slow and steady as I rediscover my rhythm and confidence on two wheels.

This weekend, I plan to go for my first ride in what feels like a lifetime. I’ll pick a quiet time when the roads are empty, giving myself the space and freedom to reconnect with cycling without the fear of traffic or accidents. And as I pedal along, I’ll embrace the sense of adventure and discovery that comes with exploring new places and pushing my boundaries.

In addition to my cycling journey, I’ve decided to incorporate weight tracking into my diary entries as a way to hold myself accountable and stay motivated. I’ll share my current weight in kilograms with each post, along with any progress I’ve made towards my goal of achieving a healthier lifestyle.

As I embark on this journey back to cycling, I invite you to join me every step of the way. Together, we’ll conquer fears, break down barriers, and embrace the joy of living life to the fullest.

With excitement and anticipation,

Kaydee,

 

Current Weight: 111.10KG

Days without Alcohol: 387D